Went pretty MIA with this blog if I’m being honest with myself. So, since I’m in a shit mood, I decided I might as well update everyone on what has been going on.

            So the cool thing is I’m back on my meds that make me feel happier. The not so cool thing is that I feel really lonely and hyperaware of the e v e r y t h i n g. The down side of these meds are that they give me more energy and hmmm why would that be a bad thing? Maybe because I have absolutely nothing to do at school!!! My homework load isn’t unbearable and usually gets finished early in the day and I can no longer just rot away in my bed. I /want/ to hang out with people and be around people but I feel like no one here wants to be around me.

            I hung out with a boy last night and had a really good time to not be in contact for all of day. These meds are supposed to “help” with anxiety, but because the increase of energy there is the increase of paranoia E T C. So basically… I have absolutely no more fingernails to bite and my clinical strength deodorant isn’t even working. So I feel better???? But also feel like shit??? You know how it is. And if you don’t,,, then,,, keep doing what you’re doing.